It’s been nearly a whole year since my last update (11 months ago) and reflecting back, a lot has changed. Quite a few people wanted me to update my blog, and can’t help thinking they want a few answers to questions they are too afraid to ask. Which is absolutely fine and understandable.
In terms of mental health, I am better now. I’m not quite sure if that’s the right way to put it as I still suffer from panic and anxiety episodes, and depressive episodes every now and then. But I’ve been going through counselling for about 9 months now. My team at work have been supportive so couldn’t ask for more. I meant to blog about this sooner so there’s a whole post in a draft that will be posted at some point.
Work feels a lot more engineeringy. Which is always a good thing. The thing I like about engineering is that often it’s not always the same problem in a different place so always keeps you constantly thinking. I went through a bout of feeling unsatisfied at work with low workloads and some mundane tasks until recently, where I finally found where my skills fit with certain tasks. So all is good in the hood, as the kids say.
More health stuff! During counselling I realised some of the skills I lack in is due to not having such an ‘ordinary’ upbringing. I didn’t have anyone to take me swimming or ride a bicycle. So in the last few months, I moved back home (more on that topic another time) and since I was unable to realistically go to the gym in the mornings – and I know I definitely will not go in the evenings with the exception of the odd class – I decided to take swimming lessons and learn how to cycle.
When you haven’t done something like cycling before, I tell you, it is really bloody difficult! The trouble also is knowing that you are more than capable and that you are not dumb as a mule. Which makes it especially frustrating when you can’t seem to get the hang of it, and start to analyse every time it goes wrong. Which, by the way, don’t do that! Anyway, after about 4 lessons (which are 2 hours long each), I finally grasped it and was able to cycle! Except I am still using what my instructor calls ‘the death grip’ on my handles. I am the most tense person on a bike ever! So plenty of room for improvement. Well, my cycling lessons are not over yet anyway.
Back at school, I was the one that really dreaded P.E. Not for me, thanks. I thought I was just incapable of being fit, but really it just didn’t interest me. I didn’t want to be competitive. I’m not really one for team sports either. It’s only after school and more recently I’ve been more interested into fitness. Which is funny as I discussed with my cycling instructor that it is usually the ones that are more fit at school that do not carry it on after school. Interesting as I never thought I would enjoy any physical activities.
Let’s talk games now. Everyone has been on this Pokemon Go hype, including me. I got to lvl 18 and it’s just bollocks now. It is the typical microtransactions game engine where it’s pretty easy to begin with and you level really quickly, to get to grips with the game, leaving you hooked. Then they start to introduce things to make it more challenging. To the point where you can’t easily carry on without giving them some money for items. Grand. So I’ve reached that point now, I’m feeling a lot less enthused. However, what this has done is peaked my interest back into the Nintendo franchise. They got me, dammit! So just purchased a 2DS.
Typically at the same time, I’ve been getting into playing Starbound since v1.0 has finally released. I was pretty hooked on Stardew Valley for a number of weeks. A few friends recommended it to me so I checked it out at PC Gamer Weekender (which actually we only checked out for the Vive demos… god, that needs another post too!!). After waiting a while for this socially starved guy to stop talking to the person who was assisting those playing Stardew (there was only one terminal for it), I had a go at it and thought it was cute and nice. Not much of a big deal. I did purchase it later on and realised it is much much more than ‘just a farming game’. I like dungeons. I like mini games. I like crafting things. And finding stupidly rare fishes that fly outta nowhere. Oh yeah, and actually making a living being a farmer…
So as you can see, a lot of my free time is taken up by the fitness activities I bestowed upon myself, bloody video games and I haven’t started on some of the other things like TV shows, comic books and normal reading books too… All whilst planning a big backpacking trip in October! More about those things another time.